Bachelor Alum Madi Prewett Reveals She’s Been ‘Free from Porn and Masturbation’ for 10 Years After Being ‘Enslaved’ by Her Fascination tram

Madi Prewett is opening up about a personal obstacle she has overcome.

In a recent episode of her Stay True podcast, the Bachelor alum, 29, spoke out about “sexual sin” and how she overcame an addiction to porn and masturbation that began at a young age. Emphasizing the importance of religion in her life, Prewett revealed the role God has played in her journey.

“This has been a struggle,” she admitted. “This has been a huge part of my testimony, something I’ve struggled with since middle school. And thankfully, by the grace of God, and by the power of Godly community and people around me, I have been free from porn and masturbation for — I don’t even know — 10 years.”

“That was something that enslaved me and marked me for so long,” she continued. “That was something I felt like I could not break free from. No matter how much I loved Jesus, I could not shake that sin. I could not break free from porn and masturbation. And I would beat myself up and I would be bound by shame.”

Prewett explained that her interest in sexuality began in her early teens.

As she entered middle school, Prewett said she started listening to music and watching TV shows that introduced her to “sex and hooking up.”

“I had already had moments of being curious about things and having certain feelings, or wondering certain things, or fantasizing about certain things [that] I had not told that to anyone,” she shared. “I had not pursued to do anything about that, but I was curious.”

She recalled a pivotal moment when she was 13 and a friend showed her an “extremely inappropriate” show where “everyone was naked.”

“It was all about sex and sexual relationships and who [the main character] was going to choose based off of who she was attracted to, and it was a whole crazy thing,” Prewett said. “But I just remember I had never watched anything like that before, and my body started feeling things that I had never felt before, and I started you know wondering things that I'd never wondered before and then desiring it and then wanting it.”

Her urge to explore what she had been seeing in the media quickly took over.

Within a couple weeks, the reality star confessed she was searching porn on the internet and started masturbating. At the time, she explained she thought that was something “only guys struggle with,” which led to her feeling extreme embarrassment in private.

“This continued for a long time, and then this bled into relationships," she said, adding that she was "letting the enemy run my life with living in secrecy and living in isolation."

"This bled into then, when I would start dating someone, I pushed so many boundaries physically.”

Prewett said her religious upbringing did not lay out clear limits when it came to sexual desires.

Growing up, Prewett was raised knowing that “sex was a big no no,” but she still had questions about “all the other stuff,” such as porn and sexual activities with people that didn’t include intercourse.

“I didn't have clarity,” she acknowledged. “Those were the gray areas of this whole purity thing that I was not clear on, that I was not certain about. And so because of that, I found myself continuing to push boundaries and continuing to go further than I knew deep down in my heart that I wanted to go or that I knew I should go.”

Ultimately, Prewett said “confessing to God and confessing to other believers” is what “set me free from the addiction to sexual sin.” 

“As soon as I said the thing that I was so scared to say, I immediately felt free,” she shared. “Immediately, something shifted. Something happened when I spoke what was in the dark, and I brought it into the light. Something shifted, something happened. Obviously that doesn't mean I went from that moment and never struggled again — absolutely not. I continued to struggle. But as I brought it into the light and I brought other people into it, I then created an atmosphere where my sin was brought into the light, people were aware of it, and they then could hold me accountable.”